Welcome back and thanks for your question. I'm sorry to hear about those ongoing struggles. I will say that while I am happy to help in any way that I can please be aware we are not counselors and are not qualified to give any kind of professional advice. That being said it sounds like you are really struggling with any kind of access to the internet. Think of Covenant Eyes as a a tool in your toolbelt - ideally one of several. You also say that you have an unaccountable accountability partner that doesn't help much. I would strongly encourage you to find a new Ally - perhaps several. You may also want to look into counseling services to help you on this journey as well.
Basically, it sounds like you are trying to do this largely on your own when what you really need is a robust support network to help you. I'm going to include a number of links below to helpful blogposts, support networks, and even a counseling referral. Feel free to utilize any of them if they seem helpful.
Helpful Blog Posts
- 10 Symptoms of Porn Addiction Withdrawal and How to Manage Them83
- 50 Things to Do Instead of Watching Porn44
- The Ultimate Guide to Identifying and Redirecting Your Porn Triggers24
- 10 Indisputable Rules: A Guide to Recovery From Porn76
- Six Ways Watching Porn Affects Your Mental Health24
- Why Quitting Porn Will Improve Your Mental Health (And so Much More)35
- Jump-Start Men's Health Month by Quitting36
- Breaking the Silence: Confessing Your Porn Struggles Before You Tie the Knot25
- The Deadly Cycle of Pornography41
- Four Ways Porn Warps the Male Brain26
Free Downloadable Ebooks
- Your Brain on Porn: 5 Proven Ways Pornography Warps Your Mind and 3 Biblical Ways to Renew It26
- The Porn Circuit: Understand Your Brain and Break Porn Habits in 90 Days24
- Hobbies and Habits: Fighting Porn with Purpose26
Counseling and Coaching Services
Online Porn Detox Programs
I hope some of this proves helpful for you Dan. Let us know if there is anything else we can do for you sir.
Thank you and have a great day.